It's a new dawn, it's a new day...and I'm feeling good

Funny how life changes in the blink of an eye. We all find ourselves on a 24hr a day emotional roller coaster. Each one of us can choose to let in as much or as little emotion as we'd like. I always choose to let in all the emotion possible. I believe that I am a strong person, but I am also very emotionally inclined. I can't help it. I am passionate, and when I feel hurt, or happy, or anything in between my emotion & passion comes out. It oozes from my eyes, tears are not something I have the power to control. My temper rises, and I am capable of being so in the moment that I say things that others may take the wrong way. I become so engulfed in my emotions that, yes at times, I prohibit any rationalization. But make no mistake. I am not the "girl" I once was. Though my advancements in my emotional stability may not appear to be vast, they do exist. I do allow room for other's feelings now. I do stop and try to see things from every angle.

I've never claimed to have all the answers, or to be constantly in the right. But I do end up being perceived that way. Not my intentions, but it happens.

I have come to realize that I have to be comfortable in my own skin, to be comfortable with those around me. I am flawed, but I am good. Every piece of the puzzle, good and bad gives way to the person that I am. One piece goes missing and I am no longer complete. I don't expect to be understood, just accepted. I do not look for approval, only to be loved.

The best part of life is that with every dawn, we are given an opportunity to start anew. Between the moment our eyes close and we drift away, to the moment when we are awoken again, the slate, for the most part wipes itself clean. If the people we surround ourselves with in our lives are truly good, understanding people, they will allow for that clean slate, and stick around to fight the good fight for one more day. Nothing is given to us, or automatic. We all have to put forth every bit of effort we can muster in order to get where we truly want to be.

Lucky for me, those in my life, allow me to fail, cry, punch wall, feel horrid, realize my mistakes, allow me to approach them on bended knee, beg for forgiveness, and wipe the slate clean.

I am blessed, and never is that forgotten in my mind.

I am who I am, and I am proud of who I continue to be. Every step forward leads me closer to exactly where I want to be.

You are part of all I see in my future. Understand that the love I have for you is real, and everlasting. Support me, understand me, allow me my time and space, trust me and my love for you. I will not disappoint you. I will not let you down.