It's been so long since I've written, just to write. Letting my thoughts spill from my head, like a rolling waterfall...I can't say it's because I've had nothing to write. It's quite the opposite. So much has happened in my life. A million moments that have snow balled into what my life is now, and how I am loving the snow. Everyday I still deal with my own demons. The little set backs that I bring upon myself...but more often than not I am happy. Genuienly happy. When was the last time I was able to say that? I honestly can't remember ever being able to say it.
I've spent the last few years, trying to better myself. Physically, mentally, financially. I can't say I've succeeded completely, but I have made vast improvement. I'm trying my best to make peace with the women I see in the mirror. It is a constant battle between my own lack of self worth, and giving myself credit for the good that is within me.
Life has proven to be a constant journey of unexpected turns, dips and rolls. I take in something new everyday, about myself, my family, my loved ones. The people around me are part of what has allowed me to grow. I have to give lots of credit to those who really love and care about me, because if it weren't for their constant words of encouragement, I think I would have given up on myself long ago.
People take chances everyday. Roll the dice and see what comes...that I already knew. What I'm starting to understand is that those chances are necessary to take. We can't get by in life playing it safe. When we fall down, and brake the skin...well we just have to get up, and go full force again. Failing is not a weakness. It does not make us less of a person. It's the giving up and not trying that proves that.
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